It is another Monday where I just want to lay in bed and not do much. However, I have to get up in order to take on the day and go to work. I feel my feet dragging onto the floor while I put on my work uniform. My hair, though newly washed, looks like a mess but I'm determined to keep it down for the day so it doesn't get oily on the top. I make my coffee and grab an orange on the way out.
I get to work while it's still dark out, I poorly park my car in a spot, my spot, my unassigned spot. You know when you have a place you like to sit or park and it's not an assigned seat because it's a parking garage but you've parked there every day for months so you feel like it's yours? This is my spot. I like this spot. People sometimes park in my spot and that makes me sad but it's okay because it's not assigned parking but come on. It's my spot.
Anyways, I get to work and I don't have any books that bring me joy right now so I pretend to read while I'm really watching tiktoks. I'm mentally preparing myself for the fact that I will stay overtime tonight because that's how it always is. I always work 30 minutes of overtime on Mondays. That's a guarantee. However, I forgot that the provider here on Mondays had an emergency and won't actually be here so it was nice to not have to prepare for staying late today.
I did get hungry and almost bought lunch but I decided that I wasnt going to get it. I would eat my orange for lunch and enjoy it. I challenged myself not to buy anything out during this work week. If I did that, I would buy a lemon bar cookie from crumbl. So well see what I come up with for the eats.
Work was fine. The traffic was fine. I got home and I lay in bed for a little while. Lately, this is something that I'm doing. Lay in bed for an hour or so and then ill get up, shower, eat, etc. I'm not sure if I like this whole process yet but I'm trying it out. I did get to eat that extra burger for dinner and then a little later with my tea, I made some cut-up fruit in a bowl. YUM!
You know when something happens that is so tiny but it's a slight inconvenience and then these small inconveniences continue to happen for days until you explode? Yeah, today was the start of that. I made tea and my little string dropped into the hot water, then I spilled all the tea all over the kitchen floor, then I slipped and fell, then my tea bag broke and all of the tea bag guts were floating around my tea, then my apple got rotten after a half-day sitting on the counter. Then I forgot to lock my door at night, then I dropped my phone and I thought it cracked (it didnt) then it was charging for like 3 hours but didnt charge at all. What is going on?!
These little annoyances are not so annoying when it happens individually but when things continuously happen like this, I know the universe is trying to challenge me. And I'm clearly losing.
But I was reminded of a memory that I will now share with the class. My mother used to meet us at the front door every day after we got home from school. We would all gather around the kitchen table and partake in a family tradition called “tea time” where we would drink tea and eat a little snack before dinner. It was fun to get to talk about our day.
Now I'm sitting here and I hardly talk to my family about their days. I don't know what's happening in my brother's life. I keep hearing that they are going to send him off to ranger school or something but I haven't heard that. We don't really talk. I know nothing about what is seriously going on in anyone's life. It's interesting how we used to see each other every day and hang out and now we are all in different cities in different states having different lives. I'm happy that they are happy but I'm sad that I'm not as involved as I used to be.
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